AND WAITING!!!
This waiting is just killing me! When we started this process I remember reading other people's stories, and thinking O.K. I'm not going to let it get to me that much, I mean whatever the time frame, we are meant to have a certain baby, right? Someone up there watching knows which baby is for us, and maybe we just need to wait till the timing is right in order to get her. So what difference does a couple of weeks make? A big, HUGE difference.
I keep thinking every morning, THIS is the day that our mail man will delivery the most anticipated piece of mail I have ever wanted so badly in my life! I wait around, thinking maybe the mail will come early today, knowing full well that our mail is delivered any time between 12:30 and 3:00. Every sound that seems familiar, like the truck that she drives, I rush to the window, but nothing. I try to time my day, so that if it comes , I will be able to immediately make the copies, get it notorized, and certified at the courthouse, and send it off to the State. So in order to do that, I need to feed my girls an early lunch, take an early nap (as if I can drift off to sleep at all) I usually wake up first, and try to figure out how I can wiggle my way out of the bed without waking my kids, to sneak to the mail box. So I just lay there, willing my girls to WAKE UP.
When they finally do, I rush as fast as I can to the end of my driveway, trying the whole time to not look like a big fool. My heart is racing, my stomach is in my throat, I reach to open the mailbox. There are envelopes, I grab them and quickly rummage through to see if it came...
NO!!!
It did not come today! I am almost in tears walking back to the house. Well, maybe tomorrow. Same routine, same early lunch, same early nap, same queasy feeling on the way to the mail box. And finally the same gut wrenching realization that another day has past us by.
I do not mean to sound down in the dumps, but let's face it, I am getting a little depressed.
It doesn't help knowing that another family that lives here in our town, has already received their form. Their home study was sent to USCIS the same time, received on THE same day, and they have their form. We have nothing, but our hopes that it will come.................................TOMORROW!
In the mean time, I have been a little bored, so I have posted some pictures of our girls. They are older pictures, taken last year about this time. Lily was three, and little Madilyn was probably about 9 months old.
I keep thinking every morning, THIS is the day that our mail man will delivery the most anticipated piece of mail I have ever wanted so badly in my life! I wait around, thinking maybe the mail will come early today, knowing full well that our mail is delivered any time between 12:30 and 3:00. Every sound that seems familiar, like the truck that she drives, I rush to the window, but nothing. I try to time my day, so that if it comes , I will be able to immediately make the copies, get it notorized, and certified at the courthouse, and send it off to the State. So in order to do that, I need to feed my girls an early lunch, take an early nap (as if I can drift off to sleep at all) I usually wake up first, and try to figure out how I can wiggle my way out of the bed without waking my kids, to sneak to the mail box. So I just lay there, willing my girls to WAKE UP.
When they finally do, I rush as fast as I can to the end of my driveway, trying the whole time to not look like a big fool. My heart is racing, my stomach is in my throat, I reach to open the mailbox. There are envelopes, I grab them and quickly rummage through to see if it came...
NO!!!
It did not come today! I am almost in tears walking back to the house. Well, maybe tomorrow. Same routine, same early lunch, same early nap, same queasy feeling on the way to the mail box. And finally the same gut wrenching realization that another day has past us by.
I do not mean to sound down in the dumps, but let's face it, I am getting a little depressed.
It doesn't help knowing that another family that lives here in our town, has already received their form. Their home study was sent to USCIS the same time, received on THE same day, and they have their form. We have nothing, but our hopes that it will come.................................TOMORROW!
In the mean time, I have been a little bored, so I have posted some pictures of our girls. They are older pictures, taken last year about this time. Lily was three, and little Madilyn was probably about 9 months old.
posted by Angela at 9:09 PM
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